I’m wrapped up in a lot today. Fear of the future pain of the past and the confusion of the present.
This is more of a statement than a post, but I am hoping saying it out loud may take some of the bite away. I can identify what started the past part for me. Reading an email from the HSLDA about a family in Pennsylvania and there story and how close it was to mine. Anger about what happened to them wells up. But also causes fear about the state of affairs in this world in this uncertain time.
I wonder what has happened to us as people, as a society, a community. The uncertainty of life on a deeper level then ever before. I have a deep desire to be small and pull my family close. Live a different way, outside of this broken system, this broken world and this broken people we have all become. I choose peace, but how to create it eludes me.
I think most would think I’m throwing it all away by running for the hills. I think of it as walking toward the only thing left for us as a species. I can say I understand the desire to be apart now more than I ever did. I understand you can not be an individual in the society we have become. The controls placed on our children in schools with electronic identification. Security put in place to keep us safe from those who may harm us. We have closed our eyes as the final illusions of freedom has past before us and the embers have died. My desire is no longer for freedom it is to be separate. And along with that comes great fear and uncertain times, what happens to those who say out loud the system is broken. That is tomorrow. Today I choose peace.
